Re: Insomnia

It's almost 3 a.m. in Australia. Actually it's daylight saving tonight. So it's still two o'clock. I am feeling very awake tonight. I spent the last few hours doing my presentation. The progress was so slow. The longest I 've spent on a presentation. What do you do when you can't sleep at night? I like to watch a movie. Sleeping is a luxury and we shall not sleep.

I feel happy when I don't sleep.

Re: you can if you think you can

I went to Judo last night and this was what I read at the club. It is a ridiculous world out there. People try to put you down at the hospital everyday. It is easy to think I can't. It is easy to give up. I will use this to remind myself I can.

I am happy when I feel like that I can.

Re: winter

Kam Sau, winter is coming soon. It is so cold in this house. I am not sure how I will live through this winter. so cold even now.

I feel happy when it's warm.

Re idiot

Idiots can work as hard as they want. Nothing will happen. Idiots are idiots. Nothing will change their fate.

I feel happy when I am not an idiot.

Re: Panadol

Panadol is probably the most commonly prescribed medication world wide. In most countries, it can be bought over the counter without a prescription. It is safe if used correctly. It has minimal side-effects. It has a strong pain relief effect. Although it is so popular, the mechanism of action (how it works) is still unknown. It is safe within its therapeutic range. Overdosing on panadol will inevitably result in liver failure. It is a painful and slow death which could drag on for months. People who try to kill themselves with panadols will often end up on the liver transplant list.

I feel happy when I know something about a medication.

Re: staying at home

I love staying at home. I get to read. I get to study. I get to do a lot of things staying at home. The only thing that you can't do is communicating with people. May be that's what I am lacking. My people skill. The ability to bull shit. The ability to make people happy. The ability to make people look good.

I feel happy when I stay at home.

Re: study

I want to be a good student. I tried hard to be a good student but I never succeed. I want to know why but I don't seem to find out. It's probably I don't work hard enough. I am willing to give up all my time just studying. But it's still not enough. Harder and harder I work. Books and books I read. Teachers and teachers I met. None has prepared me for this. Study, study and study. I want to be the best.

I am happy when I can become the top student.

Re: Efficient

Is there a way to be more efficient? I find that I waste a lot of time doing useless stuff. Once it comes to important chores, I just keep postponding them. Kam Sau, you are the expert of effiiciency. May be you can give me some tips on how to become more efficient.

I feel happy when I can become efficient.

Re: Smile

People who smile are generally more popular. They look more happy. They have more friends. They probably feel more confident. They probably are genuinely more happy with their lives. I am learning how to smile. I used to have big smile on my face. My smile has faded with the advancement of my age. The constant belittling by other people. The constant battle that I have to fight everyday. I guess everyone has to go through this. I feel better doing the same thing with a smile.

I feel happy when I smile.

Re: Music

Kam Sau, I found a new online music station. I now listen to it all the time. It's called ww.jazzradio.com. I found this station from Jack because he was listening to it when he was cooking. I went on it and had a look and tried listening to few different categories of Jazz. I like Paris Cafe the most. Very soothing music. It's good to play it on a sunday afternoon.

I feel happy when I can listen to the music I like.

Re: Sausages

I love sausages. I like them because they are easy too cook. They don't require any marination or preparation. I can cook them any time. Tonight, Adrian cooked some pasta with sausages. I made a similar dish before. But I add a lot of herbs and potatoes into it. The dish I cooked turn out to be more like a Moroccan dish. I will cook that for you next time. 

I feel happy when I can cook sausages.

Re: inefficient

I am probably one of the most inefficient person in the world. I can't write. It usually take me more than one hr to write something decent. Sometimes only two sentences. I need to work on my speed of doing things. I can foresee myself struggling next year. Being yelled at and potentially getting fired as an intern. I will probably become the first intern who gets fire on the first day. These days time pass quickly and I don't get to learn anything. All in my mind is you, Kam Sau. May be that's why I am so inefficient nowadays. But inefficient sometimes is good. As you can see in this picture, the more efficient you are, the more you have to work. Since it takes me so long to complete a task, no one will give me anything else to do.

I feel happy when I can become  more efficient.

Re: Zumbie

I actually find your friend's comment funny. Dont' worry, I didn't take it too seriously. But I guess I could gained a bit of weight. I want to do this for a long period of time but just don't want to spend any money. May be I can find a very very cheap gym nearby and just go and life weight there everyday after work. 

I feel happy when I can gain weight. 

Re: Malaysian food

I quite like Malaysian food. I am not sure whether it's because there are so many Malaysians in Melbourne or it's just popular in Australia. There are quite a few Malaysian restaurants in Glen Waverley alone. My favourite dish is Hinanese chicken rice. Talking about it just make me want to have it now. Kam Sau, what is your favourite cuisine? Japanese food ?

I feel happy when I have Hananese chicken rice. 

Re: Waking up early in the morning

Kam Sau,

I woke up really early this morning to drive Evie to Glen Waverley for a booksale. When I arrived home, I still have time to sort out a few things and buy an air ticket. (All done!) Now this afternoon, I will probably do some study. Waking up early in the morning is so good!! You don't waste any of your time!

I feel happy when I can wake up early in the morning.

Re: Last day of the rotation

People are saying good-bye to their registrars. I think I am quite well liked in the ward because I do all the paperwork for them. However, no consultants remember me. I want to change this at the next rotation. Equipped with your advice. I hope I can do a bit better at my next rotation. Congratulations for having a good interview today with your boss!

I feel happy when people remember me.