Re: Struggles

Everyday life gives me new challenge, Kam Sau. I don't need to fight tigers or bears to survive no more, however,  still need to fight in a different form to survive. Fight for a job, fight to buy a house, fight to keep friendships, fight to earn money. Life is a constant battle. Everyday the battle begins at sunrise and finishes when I go to sleep. Some fights I win, and some fights I lose. I don't like losing a battle but it looks like I am losing the battle everyday. I struggle to survive in today's world. I struggle to have a job. Struggle to earn money. Struggle to write. Struggle to speak. Can life be more difficult for someone?

I feel happy when the struggle finishes.

Re: Failure

Sometimes it doesn't matter how hard a person tries, he continues to fail. He can't study. He can't run. He can't read. He can't write. Not because he doesn't work hard. It is because he is naturally stupid. He tries and tries and that's what people tell him. Just keep trying. Soon or later he will find out it does not matter how hard he tries. He will still fail. He just has to accept that and same as many facts in life. Being poor. Have no friends. Being unemployed, and die alone. But sometimes death may be the best friend for such people. Who knows what happens after death? A better place? Hell? or just simply nothing. Black and empty. Fortunately, I am no such people.

I feel happy to be alive.

Re: Sherlock Holmes

In the last few days, I have been watching Sherlock Holmes. Sherlock Holmes is sort of remind me of physicians. Physicians are very observant. They attend to every details of their patients. Making a diagnosis is sort of like solving a crime. A doctor needs to obtain history and gather signs. Sherlock Holmes gather evidence from crime scene. They put everything together to formulate a diagnosis or a suspect. I can't imagine how superb Sherlock Holmes would be if he is physician. 

I am happy when I can be as observant as Sherlock Holmes

Re: Meaningless CV

It is funny how people can be motivated for different reasons. Some people are motivated by money. Some people are motivated by love. Some are motivated by hate. A coming job interview has motivated so many students in the course. People start doing things that they will never do. They start participating in volunteer work, running marathon, setting up social clubs etc. All these activities are done to build up their CVs. The original idea of including extra-curricular activities in our CVs is good. It encourages students to focus less on books and learn to be a well-rounded person. However, students start taking short-cuts. They organise clubs with no meaning or purpose. They participate in volunteer work not to help people but so that they can put it down on their CVs. They do researches which have no meaning and no impact in the future of medicine. I am not sure the idea of including extracurricular activities on our CVs is sound any more but regardless we are all getting some life experiences from these exercises.

I feel happy when I can be motivated.

Marathon

Marathon is such a good exercise. The prize money of this marathon in total is 40, 000 dollars. But unfortunately, I won't be running the full marathon so instead of winning any money, I will be paying 40 dollars to run a 14 km marathon. Hopefully, I will be able to finish the marathon.

I am happy when I can finish a 14 km marathon.

Re: Think

I was surprised by how geriatricians basically refer every all the patients to different specialties. So what do they actually do? Even the simplest fracture, they still can't manage. You know, back in the old days. Doctors used to managed every conditions. They are generalist. But now doctors become more specialised. It is better for the patients that they are more specialised. They can provide better treatment for the patients. However, at the same time, they don't know how to manage simple conditions.

I feel happy when I can think because I think therefore I am.

Re: CV

CV is so difficult. How can I write an outstanding CV? We all follow the same format. So I think what makes a resume stand out is actually its content. How much volunteer work have I done? How many papers have I published? What did I rank as a medical student? The answer is average.

I feel happy when I can actually write down something for my resume.

Re: aged care

Aged care is so slow. There is not much happening. I 've never seen doctors which have so much free time in their hands. They attend all the teaching sessions and tutorials. It's probably not a bad profession to get into. Although they don't get pay much, they do have a lot of free time and a good lifestyle.

I feel happy when I finish my aged care rotation.

Re: Shin pads

This is what I am going to buy if I were to continue my martial art training. I can't afford to have another cellulits on my leg. Everytime I have it, I can't walk, I can't work, I can't do anything. I can't believe how brittle I am. You know if I live 500 years ago, I would have been dead by now from this infection.

I feel happy when I have a pair of shin pads.

Re: Brain

The human is like a blackbox. No one knows what is happening inside. The anatomy of the brain is just so complicated. After 4 years of med school, I am struggling with it. I have no idea about the anatomy of the brain. God help me with my future patients.

I feel happy when I don't have to know about the brain.

Re: Paper

Finally published my first paper today. It was a shit paper published in a shit journal. No one will ever read it except myself. No one will ever care except you. But at least I got a paper published. It will probably help with my job application. The job application is coming up soon. Hopefully I will get the job I wanted. Life is difficult. It doesn't matter how hard you work. You don't always end up with what you want. Just have to live with it. Nothing I can do. Nothing I can change. Everyday I continue to battle life in the hope that my hard work will one day pay off. May be that one day will come, or that one will not.

I feel happy when I get paid to publish a paper.