Re: New Year's Eve

My dearest Kam Sau,

It has been two years since I met you. In the past two years, I need to thank you for giving me many opportunities to get to know you and your family more. Thank you for your support. Thank you for your love and care. I can't be more grateful to have you in my life.

And at the same time, I know there's ups and  downs in our  relationship. There were tought times. I hope we both learned something from those incidents and at least, I think those incidents allowed us to know each other better.

By the way, I know the coming few weeks. You have work to do. You don't have to come out with me all the time. I don't mind studying with you in the library. And probably I should be doing that in order to make the most of my anesthetic experience in Hong Kong.

I hope in the coming many years. We will learn to love each other more and more. I love you.

Re: ??

Thinking..........................................................................

Re: Snooker

I hate snooker. Everytime when I play snooker, my neck hurts. In addition, I can't see properly when I lean forward because my glasses slide down on my nose. That's why I always lose.

I feel happy when I can beat my brother in snookr.

Re: Winning eleven

Winning eleven is the best soccer game ever. I played with my brother this afternoon. H bet me again. Of course, he has been practicing for  the last year while  I was studying.

I feel happy when I can beat my brother in winning  eleven.

Re: Beard

Real man grows beard. That's why I want a beard. One day I may have a beard like this. ; )

I feel happy when I can grow a beard.

Re: Tony Wong patisserie

I had Tony's cakes today. Very average, Kam Sau. I think the cakes we had in Australia were better than this. You said you had this before. What do you think?

I feel happy when I taste nice cakes.

Re: commitment

Commitment. You know I went to Dr. Tam 's lecture on my birthday. I was struggling to choose between Judo or going to his revision lecture. At that time, I was at the peak of watching youtube motivational videos. I was thinking in my head if micheal phelps didn't take any time off for 5 years and may be I should do the same. So I went to his tutorial and that definitely paid off. All the material he revised with us turned up. Thank god, if not because of that, I would struggle with those stations. They are quite difficult and even if I study very hard, I may not get them. Once again, it proves hard work and commitment will eventually pay off.

I am happy when I can commit.

Re: Muhammad Ali

Have you heard of Muhammad Ali? He 's widely recognised as the greatest boxer ever. He has so much confident in himself. If you search him on youtube, you will hear him speaking to the reporters.

I am happy when I can be as confident as him.

Re: Success

Sorry Kam Sau, I haven't been updating this blog for the last week.

I have been watching some youtube videos to motivate myself to study. There's a video on youtube about success.

It says most people want to be successful. They just kind of want it. But if you really want to be successful, you need to want it as much as you want to breath, then you will be successful. I was watching Michael Phelps's documentary. He didn't take any day off for five years!! That's insane. I think I was always looking for a short cut to success but probably there is no short cut. Just have to work and work and work and work.

I feel happy when I become successful!

Re: lost and found

I've lost so many things in the last few weeks. It's ridiculous. I lost my stethoscope. I lost my locker keys. I lost my pager. What else I 've lost and I haven't found yet. May be my passion for medicine. Now it becomes a chore. Everyday it becomes an effort to go to the hospital. It becomes an effort to attend the ward round. I hope this year passes quickly and I will be able to fall in love with medicine again.

I feel happy when I can find things that I've lost.

Re: sleep deprivation

I don't know what is happening to me. I am constantly tired. Just want to go to sleep. I am not sure whether it's the cause of sleep deprivation or it's just the mechanism of trying to avoid study. But I find out that I love my sleep too much, I can't go on like this for too long. I love sleeping!

I feel happy when I can sleep, sleep and sleep.

Re: kayaking

Have you ever tried sea kayaking? It's quite fun! I've done it once when I was in Queensland. May be we can try it when you come over to Australia. Pretty simply and you will enjoy it....I think.

I feel happy when I can go out with Kam Sau.

Re: living in a small place

Hong Kong is a pretty small place, and Australia is also getting more and more crowd. May be we can design products just for small places. Right after I came up with this idea, I realised that this kind of companies are every where. But I guess it's more doable nowadays compared to before because everything can be digitalised now. Papers can be scanned into computers, we don't need pens and paper any more, no more books, no more dvd players or VCR, TVs are getting flatter. I wouldn't like to live in a small place but if I have to, I will digitalise everything.

I feel happy when I carry less and less with me.

Re: Long Hair

Thanks to Long Hair. I found a new way to express and unleash my anger. Next time if someone offends me, I will take the person's photo and put it on the floor then throw eggs at the photo. I probably will feel a lot better afterwards.

I feel happy when I find a way to unleash my anger.

Re Death

Everyone dies. Death makes life fair. Wealth, talent, beauty do not except you from it. It will come when it wants to come. No one can stop it. One can beg. One can scream. But it will never go away.

Last week, Steve Jobs passed away at the age of 56. A relatively young age to die as the average life span in America is closed to 80. Again, he reminded me what is important in life. If I am going to die tomorrow (that's always a possibility), will I live my day like this?

I feel happy when I can say yes to this question.

Re: perseverance

I have to fight till the end. Never give up. Just like how I fight in Judo. Fight till the last minute, never give up.

I feel happy when I can fight till the last minute doesn't matter whether I win or not.

Re: Naan

Look at this Naan bread. Looks delicious. I will try to make this when you come around. I think this will go well with curry. Red curry, green curry, yellow curry, Japanese curry, Indian curry. So many different types of curry!

I am happy when I can make a perfect savoury pancake.

Re: Potato chips

These days I am eating so many chips. Study is a boring process and I like to eat when I am studying. So most of the time, I am eating when I am studying. It's not because I am hungry. I guess I have something to do while I am studying. Jes..it's a really bad habit. I think I am going to get very fat after the exam. So be prepared, Kam Sau. Eating is also such a distraction from studying. I can't concentrate on studying any more. God helps me.

I feel happy when I can concentrate on studying.

Re: Studying/reading?

In med school, no doctors called studying studying any more. They call it reading. Probably studying sounds too painful and reading sounds a lot more soothing and effortless. Students often read and read and read till we don't know what we are reading. People reading books bigger than their heads (figuratively and literally). They have lost the point. But students like me who only know a little bit of everything probably do well in the exam but may have also lost the point. It's hard to just obtain adequate knowledge for the exam. I am still struggling to find the thin line that separates studying too much and studying too little.

I feel happy when I have mastered the art of studying.

Re: Verbal communication

Verbal communication can cause so much damage. Sometimes I think if we all can't talk may be it's a good thing. Nothing is more damaging than a verbal abuse. We can do so much good but at the same time so much bad with what we said. Every word I said have to be well thought. I think may be that's the reason why I am speaking less and less at the hospital. 

I am happy when I can master the art of verbal communication. 

Re: Hot shower

It is like heaven to have a hot shower after intense exercise. After Judo, I like to have a hot shower at home. It is very refreshing and after the shower, I don't feel tired any more.

I feel happy when I can have a hot shower.

Re: Dependent personality disorder

This photo definitely reminds me of michael. He's like a person who has a handcuff on my wrist and follow me wherever I go. I really like to turn around and shoot him and tell him please leave me alone.

I am happy when Michael can leave me alone.

Re: Sorry

Sorry, my kam Sau. Haven't updated the website for a long time. In the last few weeks, I haven't been living by my own rules. In my mind, exam is only part of my life. I always tell myself that I will never let exam disrupt my schedule and agenda. I will keep going to Judo. I will keep writing the blog. But as the exam is getting closer and closer, I am not sure that I can stick to my promise but will probably try my best to do it. I don't think I will make study notes any more, just read as much as I can and hopefully I could retain 0.1 % of it.

I feel happy when the exam is over!

Re: Potatoes

I cooked this potato dish tonight. I boiled the potato first. Then put them in a wok and add rosemary, garlic, butter and season with salt and pepper. That taste fantastic. Let me cook it for when you come over.

I feel happy when I can cook a good dish.

Re: Insecurity

After talking to you last night, I 've been thinking about insecurity. Everyone sort of has s'thing that they are not confident about. It happens to me, it happens to you, it even happens to the president of France. As you can see in this photo. You are probably one of the smartest people I've met and there are still things you are not happy about. I guess that's just the nature of human beings. Like I am not happy about my work performance, how I study, how I perform in Judo, how I communicate, how I live my life......the list goes on. I don't have a solution for this problem but hopefully one day I can say that I am good at s'thing and people would actually employ me for doing that.

I feel happy when I can conquer my insecurity.

Re: Assignment

Unbelievable!!! I've never scored this high mark in any essay. I only spent three hours on this assignment and got a well done from a consultant.

I feel happy when I score a pass on my assignment.

Re: Psychiatry

Psychiatry is a joke. You speak to the patient for 45 mins but you end up prescribing the patient the same medication.

I feel happy when I don't have to do psychiatry.

Re: Interview

I did awful at the interview yesterday, Kam Sau. I hope I didn't let someone who doesn't deserve to be in to come in. Everything was too relaxed and I didn't take notes and it was difficult to remember what they said at the end of the interview. Thinking back about the interview 3 years ago. I could have done a lot better. I didn't analyse the stem well enough and I didn't answer the questions well. I don't think I have improve much from three years ago. I hope I will do better at the real job interview next year..........

I feel happy when I do well at interviews.

Re: Do what you love, love what you do

It's quite a simple concept. Love what you do and you will excel in that area. In real life, it's not that easy. People are often allocated to a particular role by the society, family, peers and friends. Needless to say there is financial pressure, family duties etc etc. May be loving what you do is a bit easier. As a person sometimes cannot change what they do, they may as well love what they do and eventually it will become doing what they love.

I feel happy when I do what I love to do.

Re: Curry

It's hard to go wrong with curry. It does not matter how u cook the curry. It will always turn out ok. Chicken, Lamb, beef, fish. They all taste the same after a while. Curry is like an ultimate infallible dish.

I am happy when I can have a good curry.

Re: Scramble egg

So hard to make perfect scrambled eggs. I often over cooked them, under cooked them, just never look as good as the scramble egg they make at the restaurant.

I feel happy when I can make perfect a scrambled egg.

Re: Comedy

I love watching comedy. My plan is to watch horrible boss tomorrow night. I hope it will be a good movie tomorrow.

I love comedy when I can have a good laugh.

Re: Laziness

I am getting really lazy these days. My memory has gotten really poor. I am really worried about the coming up exam. God help me!

I am happy when I can pass the exam.

Re: Interview

I love this cartoon. It is so true about interview. Bluffing through the interview and change everything afterward. This is so true about medical interview. Medical students definitely want to be a doctor for other reasons rather than just helping people. Money, power, women, social status......

I feel happy when I can decide whether a medical student can be admitted to med school or not.

Re: Fry to heaven

We went to have Korean chicken on Sunday. That restaurant is famous for  their fried chicken. The fried chicken was disappointing. It was a bit too dry and didn't have much flavour. And during dinner, we came up with an idea of opening up a fried chicken restaurant. Ninan came up with a name "Hong Kong Fried Chicken".

I feel happy when I can make good fry chicken.

Re: less is more

Less is more. It is true for most of the things. Probably except for money...haha. I am in the process of simplifying my life. Chuck out the rubbish and keep the useful items.

I feel happy when I can simplify my life.

Re: Vet

After I learn a little bit about paediatrics. I understand the difficulties vet encounter everyday. Treating someone who cannot tell you what's wrong is so difficult.

I feel happy when I can figure what's wrong with a child.

Re: Kids

I saw quite many kids tonight. Disaster, don't really know what I am doing. Look like an idiot. Completely out of control. But I think I will get there eventually.

I feel happy when I know what 's happening.

Re: Hippocrates

Hippocrates is the father of western medicine. When we graduate, we have to make an oath--"hippocrates oath". So that we don't misuse our power. I really want to be a good doctor. I hope one day I will be one.

I feel happy when I can become a good doctor one day.

Re: Fate

Do you believe in fate? I don't believe in it completely but I think it exists. The reason I have a chance to study med is mainly because I come to Australia to study. If I didn't come to study, I don't think I will be doing med. Of course, one has always to work hard to achieve what he or she wants. But sometimes things just don't go the way they want. Everyone wants to be the best but I truly believe there are s'thing more than hard working that limits one's ability to achieve goals. Certainly, this doesn't give opportunity for people to be lazy or just blame other people or god for their mistakes. Let's use your sister as an example. I am quite sure she wants to become the top student in class. I think it's difficult for her to live under the shadow of a sister who achieves so much with her life. Your sister probably thinks it does not matter how much she tries, she won't be as good as you. That's just one of my hypothesis. I just want to say sometimes things don't work out or someone fails is always multi-factorial and it may not solely be your sister's problem.

I think this type thinking helps to be more tolerant to other people. I think deep down I want people to treat me the same way. Able to tolerate my slowness, mistakes and stupidity.

I feel happy when people can forgive my stupidity.

Re: Four hour work week

Tim Ferriss is a genius. He takes short cut in learning things. He can speak multiple languages. He does things efficiently and he writes a blog and two best selling books. I enjoy reading his blog because he gives a lot of information on how to do things effectively. If you have time, go and read some of his articles.

I feel happy when I learn how to do things efficiently.

Re: Lemon Chicken

This is the lemon chicken I cooked last week. I will try to cook again this weekend. Of course, my lemon chicken looks a lot of better than this. The recipe is quite simple. I will perfect this and cook for you when you come to Australia.

I feel happy when I can cook lemon chicken.

Re: Let's simply things

I believe most things can be simplified. It does not matter how complicated it is, there must be a way to simplify it. I think writing is a good example. Of course, it depends on the purpose of the article the author will choose the appropriate languages. But when the article is aimed at the public, say conveyancing contract and credit card conditions. The language used should be easy to understand. I am quite inspired by Alan Siegel who is advocating to simplify tax forms, legal documents etc to simply, day to day English. The most recent experience I had with simple, plain English was with Singapore airline. You know, usually the conditions apply for an air-ticket is bloody long and with so many words that no one understands. Singapore airline has simplified its conditions to one page with easy to understand English. I feel at ease and I buy the ticket from them. I think this concept should apply to medicine as well, we haven't changed our medical treatment consent form for god knows how long. I wonder how many patients can actually understand it and its implications. May be that would be a good research topic.

I feel happy when I read something I can understand.

Re: Viktor Frankl

Viktor Frankly is a German's psychiatrist who was a prisoner of war during world war II. I read half of his book in the last 2 weeks. He's a really good writer. His thinking was quite evolutionary. Unfortunately, the book was due today and I needed to return it. I may borrow it again next week and read it again.

I feel happy when I read a good book.

Re : Gordan Ramsay

Have you heard of this guy before Kam Sau? He is a famous cook from Britain. Other than his cooking, he's more famous for his short temper and extremely rude demeanour against other chefs. In the last few days, I have been watching his cooking shows. He's actually awesome! I tried out some of his recipes and so far they've turned out pretty good. So when you come over, I can actually do some cooking for you.

Re: I am back !!!!

I am back to the blog!!!! Finally, after so many days of waiting, google has finally fixed up the bug. You must be waiting for my return for so long! That's why I put one of my photos up to reward your patience. I know you won't admit it but I know you love this picture and you would print it out and stick it on to your wall, your desk, at work, may be even on your t-shirt. 

I feel happy when I can write on the blog!

Re: Busy

Re: Cream Brulee

Cream Brulee......I didn't know that they set cream brulee into fire like this until I saw this picture. My god. Looks like they are about to burn down the whole kitchen. I wish I could find that picture again. The one they took when you were having the cream brulee....hahaha. I remembered you took that day off for me. We went and watched a movie together in the morning. You were a sweet heart, Kam Sau. I will learn how to make cream Brulee so you don't have to risk getting your picture taken again.

I feel happy when I see Kam Sau on the magazine.

Re: Home sweet home

Finally, I am back to Moe. Nowhere is like home. Suprisingly, the thing I miss the most is my kitchen. Finally I can cook rice with my rice cooker. I don't have to wait for half an hour for the stove to heat up. That's so good. And I am sleeping on my double bed.

I am happy when I am home!

Re: Bruce Lee

Bruce Lee actually got better, faster and stronger after he recovered from his back injury.

I feel happy when I recover from my injury.

Re: Ghost festival

This is what I was talking about yesterday. The Chinese opera for ghost to watch. I did a bit of research this morning and found some practical tips for you on Saturday.

When I can find useful tips on the internet, I feel happy.

1、不要穿紅衣服；大家都知道紅色辟邪的，但是7月你能有鬼紅嘛。。。他們喜歡跟在顯眼的顏色後面，可別把他們帶回家，還有不要穿紅色的鞋。 

2、不要深夜回家；大晚上男的我不知道可不可以，女的肯定不可以，即使有男的送你，除非他還陪你睡覺，我半夜打完麻將回宿舍就總聽耳邊有人喘氣，嚇的我穿上衣服回家了。
3、如果沒有辦法必須晚上回家，那就不要回頭，不要想那些可怕的電影，不要到處亂看，不管看見看不見都會讓你很害怕。
4、不要隨便上公共廁所，裏面很邪門的，尤其晚上，廁所經常鬧鬼的。
5、不要去游泳，即使你的技術很好，因為在河裏和游泳池中淹死的人會找身體較弱的人拉下水，這樣就可以投胎轉世了。
6、女孩子不要大晚上對著鏡子梳頭，早晨梳吧，大晚上梳頭燈開的再亮也有關燈的時候，沒有發現女鬼都長頭髮，難道她們死的時候就是長的嗎？？
7、不要去廟裏，路過廟裏不要去看裏面，據說孤魂野鬼的家就是那裡了
8、不要去點蠟燭和香！蠟燭是在召喚靈魂，而香就是鬼魂最喜歡的東西
9、上樓梯的時候不要回頭，就算有一個人叫你或哼的歌曲，也不要去看，不見得那個人是真人～～
10、死過人的地方不要去，我鄰居家的奶奶死了，旁邊的鄰居和他關係不錯，過去以後鬼上身，哭的還想再活到抱孫子，太可怕了。
還要如果晚上遇到鬼打牆你就不要再走了，再原地坐的不要想恐怖的事情，想點別的，不要自己把自己嚇壞了

 

Re: Monash

Monash university has a resort in the snow!!! I would love to go there for holidays!I haven't been to snow this year, but I heard this year the snow is not very good. May be I will go in September for Claire's birthday.

I feel happy when I go snow boarding.

Re: Ocean park

I haven't been to ocean park for 10 years. I wish I could go there with you to have a look at the aquarium and try out the Roller Coaster.

I feel happy when I go to Ocean park.

Re: Meeting

Meeting is, in most occasions, a waste of time. We gather together and discuss many topics and then walk away and nothing is done. So the best strategy to solve this problem is --- cancel all the meetings. Just cancel them. Not postponing them. Cancel them and discuss whatever needs to be discussed via e-mail.

I feel happy when there's no more meeting.

Re Miu miu

"Miu miu" is the daughter of Prada. The name "Miu Miu" comes from the nickname of the owner of the company Miuccia Prada. An Italian fashion designer who also has a PhD in political science. (What a combination!) Anyway, she inherited the company from her grandfather, who found Prada in 1913. Now they have around 250 stores in 65 countries.

I will keep my promise and get you a miu miu bag ga la. Don't worry, it's coming soon. ;)

I feel happy when you are happy with your miu miu bag.