2012年2月29日 星期三

Re: Hard work


After reading some websites and talking to you and Ivan, I think I know where my problems are. I am too lazy. Too passive. Not aggressive enough. I want to work in the city. I don't want to go to the country for my internship. I need to go all out. I can't slow down.

I feel happy when I can find a position in the city.

2012年2月27日 星期一

Re: Rules


My dearest Kam Sau,

I was reading the stock market book. It has a set of rules of buying and selling shares. The author reviews his rules regularly and makes changes to them so that they don't get outdated. I think this can be applied to anything. Having a set number of rules and follow them. If they don't work, review and change them. I am trying to apply those rules in the share market now. However, I think I have just missed an opportunity and now the market has reached it's peak and it is going to re-adjust first before it continues it's direction. (uptrend ? or continue to flunctuate?)

I feel happy when I can make money in the share market.

2012年2月25日 星期六

Re: Dessert


I love dessert. It makes you full. When there's not enough food, dessert always makes you feel satisfied. Last night we went to the Glen for dessert. It was 10.30 but all the shops in the Glen were still open. Amazing! We went to Pancake Panlour, it's a restaurant next to the cinema. The dessert was a huge bowl of ice-cream. I sent the picture to your e-mail. I could see that dessert will make me fat in the future. 

I feel happy when I have dessert. 

2012年2月22日 星期三

Re: The A Team



My dearest and most adorable Kam Sau,

I have heard this song multiple times and have been trying to find the title of this song. It is by a British song writer Ed Sheeran describing a homeless prostitue. A beautiful song. I really like it. Just want to share this with you.

I feel happy when I hear the song I like.

2012年2月21日 星期二

Re: Lack of knowledge



The more I work, the more I find out how little I know. I feel that today I would have killed that patient if I were there alone. I could think of 10000 things which I can do now but now it's all too late. I could have called for a med call immediately. Anyway, thank god I don't have the responsibility yet. Tonight, I started studying again fearing that something bad will happen tomorrow. My aim is to study 200 conditions by the end of June. It shouldn't be too hard. I think I should get Alex, Jack and Ninan involve. It will be easier if we all do it together. Kam Sau, how are you doing in Hong Kong? I miss you. I hope you don't finish too late tonight. Please look after yourself for now. 

I feel happy when I feel that I am a competent doctor. 

2012年2月18日 星期六

Re: Tears

Kam Sau,

How are you today? You know today Ninan was crying after we came back from lunch. I think that's it for him and Tarrannum. I feel sad for both of them. I witnessed how they got together and how they started going out. I don't like seeing people crying. I don't know what to do. It's worse to see a man cry. Men are not suppose to show their emotions but in reality, we are as weak as women. I hope Ninan will recover soon.

I feel happy when everyone around me is happy.

2012年2月16日 星期四

Re: Raining


Kam Sau, you know it is raining today. Remember that I got an umbrella from HK? I left it in my car! So I have to walk all the way from the hospital to my car. That was so stupid. 

I feel happy when I have an umbrella while it's raining outside. 

2012年2月14日 星期二

Re: Running


I went for another run with Ninan today. It was a short run, only 3 km but I was absolutely exhausted when I came back. Ended up didn't cook and bought take away Indian with Ninan. The food was good but just a bit spicy. We are both trying to get our fitness up so that we can actually enjoy Judo. Last time I was exhausted just after warm up, it was terrible.

I feel happy when I am fit.

2012年2月13日 星期一

Re: Harmonica


Kam Sau, you won't believe this !!! This is the guy with the biggest arm in the world. Guess how big it is......28 inches!!! As big as someone's waist. Absolutely amazing! Imaging of having an arm like this. How cool will that be? Today when I got home I was working on my chest and forearm. My goodness, I want an arm like this. ; _

I feel happy when I have an arm like this big.

2012年2月11日 星期六

Re: BBQ Chicken Wings

How was BBQ tonight? I had dumplings at home. The BBQ chicken wings must taste awesome with honey and a bit of garlic.

I feel happy when I can have bbq chicken wings with Kam Sau.

2012年2月10日 星期五

Re: Kam Sau

Since I returned to Australia, it seems like you don't even want to talk to me. The e-mail reply has been very briefed. You seem to be upset all the time. I don't even know whether you are reading my blog anymore. If you didn't send me an e-mail yesterday, I didn't know that you are still reading this blog. I don't know what is going on. The only thing I can do is hoping to call you at a time when you are free to talk. But it seems like I haven't had much luck so far often catching you at the wrong time. It feels like I am losing you slowly. Can you tell me what is going on?

I feel happy when kam sau is happy.

Re: What are you thinking?


Have you ever wondered what the person you are talking to is thinking? Do you think he/she is thinking that you are stupid? Or do you think he/she is not even listening to you? People's mind is so complex. You don't know what another person is thinking most of the time. I wish I could find out what other people are thinking about me. This way at lease I can improve myself. Everyday I try to read people's mind but it has been very difficult. A difficult task, sometimes it's difficult even with people you are close to. You never know what they are thinking about you. May be in the future, someone will invent a machine which will allow us to find out what another person is thinking. Kam Sau, what are you thinking?

I feel happy when I can read other people's mind.

2012年2月9日 星期四

Re: I hate other students



I was about to do a cystoscopy today. But because I let other students to sit in first. I miss out the opportunity. I will never do that again.

I feel happy when I am the only student at the department.

2012年2月7日 星期二

Re: dark cloud



Recently, I feel there is a dark cloud over me. Feels like my career is finished before it is even started. Every step is an effort. Life is getting more and more difficult.

I feel happy when the dark cloud disappears.

2012年2月6日 星期一

Re: Writer



Kam Sau, have you ever thought of becoming a writer? Even if you don't. Having good writing skill does help a lot in advancing one's career. I wish I pay more attention in my English classes in high school. Today I was talking to a junior doctor and he told me he is writing a paper and probably need some help from other people. I will see how that goes. I hope I will at least one paper published by the end of this year.

I feel happy when I can write better.

2012年2月4日 星期六

Re: The great depression of a medical student

At the age of 28, I finally made it to medical school. It is a little bit late but finally I made it. At the age of 32, I will start my career in medicine. Finally, the end of a poor student life, or the start of another one? The constant worry of not getting a job finally arrives. Although every local student is guaranteed a job, the hospital placement basically determines your future, whether you become a surgeon, physician, GP or drop-out. With 800 students coming out, the chance of getting a good position is slim.

At the age of 32, I don't have time to waste. A quick decision is required here. Surgery is difficult to enter. Physician training is easy to get into, however, it is difficult to find a job upon graduation. ED requires many shift work. GP training is the easiest. These two specialties are heavens for drop-outs. My dream of becoming a surgeon is long gone. ED and GP are left after elimination.

After the job is allocated, will I be able to withstand the constant humiliation, pressure and stress ? Will there be hope for an old medical student who is constantly struggle with life? Will there be work available? The end of medical education only opens more doors for disappointment.

2012年2月2日 星期四

Re: Money


Why do people go to work in the morning? I am quite sure there are many reasons, but most people would say money. We go to work and we earn money. When people are single, we have more financial freedom. We can blow our money  and save minimum amount of cash. But once we have a family, things change. There 's more focus on security. That is in case if one day the main income earner of the family can't go to work, or something bad happen, we want to make sure that there is enough money in the bank account to support the family for 6 months or so. However, even we put cash away in the bank, they will slowly get eaten away by inflation. My conclusion is that there is no point of going to work if we don't manage our finance appropriately. Once we have enough cash, then we can go and do what we want. 

I feel happy when I have enough money to do what I like.